The Journey to August

So, R is getting deployed a little sooner than we had anticipated.  :(  Such is the life of a military family.  I'm feeling tense right now.

I don't really know how he feels about it.  It is what it is, to him, I guess.  And it really is what it is...just something I need to work out on my own.  I don't blame him.  He didn't VOLUNTEER to go early (or so he says...watch out, I tend to be passive-aggressive...)

I start fertility hormones this week, and as the previous times that I've taken hormones, I get a little crazy (eh hem...slight underestimation, probably).  Luckily, R's VERY patient and tolerant.  And it's a good thing, too!  I highly doubt we'd still be married if he didn't tolerate my moodiness.  I'm less crazy since I've had him in my life and he's a little more outgoing too!  Perhaps I've just grown out of most of it...and now that he's getting to know my family better, he kind of understands some of my neurotic tendencies better, too.  In fact, he says I'm a lot like my dad, temper-wise.  We both blow up, but once it's done, it's done.  And then, we're fine!  LOL!

At any rate, we're going to deal and I'll probably just be a little neurotic between now and then...at least I was the last time we went through this...I think I know what to expect a little more than before and I also remember how I was thinking back then so I should be aware of things that I might do and try not to do those things.  I really hope that I get pregnant before he goes.  I really REALLY don't want to do IUI/IVF treatments while he's gone...

The journey to the end of the 6 week term...

Oh, and it's BEEN a journey.  It's been the hardest 4 weeks of my life, hands down...well, except for the time I was married to my ex.  That was just life, though!  I shouldn't talk crap, though.  I wasn't easy to live with then, either and it's certainly not been easy for my husband NOW!  Part of the reason we did as well as we did the last 18 months of our marriage was because we had roommates.  My roommate J. took a lot of the heat off of I!  Me and I clashed pretty bad, but it was worse with J and I.  I am happy to report though, that I has *finally* gotten into a serious relationship--well, serious enough that it's on facebook.  Oh, yes.  I am a facebook stalker and I'm not ashamed to admit it!  I search most of my ex's and see where they are.  It makes me really grateful to where I am.  Is that terrible of me?  I and me divorced 10 years ago in Aug.  So, I am happy that he finally moved on.  It took me a long time, in my opinion, to move on.  I'd been divorced all of...oh wait, I wasn't divorced when I had my first serious relationship (can you say rebound?)...but it was something like 3 years after I divorced before I met the man I knew I'd marry.

I knew I'd marry R after I deployed to Iraq in 2003.  I knew after a few letters I'd received from him.  One of those letters was about his "man juice" and how I'd just wanted him for that!  LOL!  After talking to one of the gals I worked with at the time, she said that was 7th date information, although we'd never had a 7th date...no we hadn't even had a 3rd date!  R wanted kids and it was apparent in that letter...a letter I still have.  A man who wanted kids!  And I wanted kids!  It worked out...there was so much more to that, though.  I wrote a pose about the sand to him towards the beginning of the war.  He still has THAT letter, too.

But, I digress...I just finished 2 exams in the lecture, 2 exams in the lab (oh, and this is Anatomy and Physiology) all of which I have excelled.  I  have an exam tomorrow.  I've been studying this weekend with my mother in law who is also a nurse.  She said this stuff was just coming back to her!  I was just saying to her on the way up to Denver why on earth do I really honestly need to know ALL of this when we came across a doctor's office that said that he specialized in maxillary stuff...and I was like, "Oh, I know where that is!" (oh, and I was excited about having this knowledge!)  And she said, "and once you know the bones, the nerves and muscles usually have the same names...who knew...well, I guess she knew!  :)

So, today, I prepared my lecture homework on joints and spent the better part of the weekend memorizing the axial bones.  I've had a few drinks tonight, so I decided that I wasn't going to review the bones.  I'm getting up bright and early tomorrow to review my bones and structures for the practical (lab exam) tomorrow morning.  Classes end on the 17th.  4 down, 2 to go.

Journey to Memorial Day

This weekend, my in-laws will be visiting us from Ohio and I'm really excited to see them.  We have a lot of stuff planned!  I hope that we can all go up to Denver and visit with my parents, at least for dinner or something while they're here.  The problem is, I have a whole lot of stuff to do to get ready for NEXT week's classes AND my dad just had heart surgery, so he's probably not going to want to hang out for too long...  We'll see...Then, I have another exam and a project due both on Tuesday.  As you can well imagine, I am not really looking forward to spending the time required to do these things, as I would MUCH rather hang out with my family.  I was hoping that I'd get a small breather, but it is not to be.  At least this is almost over.   I am so looking forward to going on vacation!  I start a new class on the 7th of June so things aren't about to slow down any...